Finally Showing Up
There’s a fire inside me I’ve been holding onto for a while now.
Not because it wasn’t ready, but because I wasn’t sure if I was.
But I think I’ve reached that point. That quiet moment where staying small just doesn’t feel like safety anymore.
It feels like delay.
Two weeks ago, I opened my first business in Rio de Janeiro.
A fluffy pancake café. At 19. In a new country.
Even writing that feels surreal.
But the truth is, I’ve been preparing for this long before anyone could see it.
Mentally. Emotionally. Spiritually.
Because I wasn’t born into a life where things like this felt guaranteed.
I had to build the ground beneath me as I walked it.
I moved out at 14. Lost my father abruptly at 16.
And from that moment on, something shifted.
I realized: if life is that fragile, then I want mine to be meaningful.
Not perfect. But mine.
I’ve always had this deep sense of purpose.
Not just about success, but about freedom and impact. Not fame, but meaning.
For years, I’ve been writing. Stacking up ideas, projects, dreams.
Notebooks full of things I always meant to share.
Not because I needed to be seen for validation, but because I hoped that maybe, if someone out there read my words, they’d feel less alone.
And still, I stayed quiet.
I’ve shown myself a little, especially through visuals.
Sensual, beautiful, curated.
That version of me is real. And I love her.
But it’s only part of the picture.
There’s more I’ve been holding back.
And now, I feel ready to bring her forward.
So this is me, finally showing up.
Not as a finished product.
But as a woman in motion. A dreamer. A work in soft, steady progress.
I want to speak more, write more, connect more.
Because I believe that the stories we tell ourselves, and each other, can change everything.
Either way, I’m grateful you’re here.
- Löah